Goodbye 2008, Hello 2009.
Hellogoodafternoon peoples > <>THE LAST DAY OF THE YEAR, 2008!
Agh. Fly by so fast > <So much happened this year..
Hmms.. I was planning on going to Vanessa's house for跨年, since I was really bored.. But I guess some people probably just don't want me there.
Not that they give a shit..
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Hmms. I have nothing better to do today. Johnny Shen's coming later, wheee, great fun. Gonna watch some movies together, and then they're gonna ditch me to 101.
Yeah, I'll just stay home and cry myself to sleep. No mood again today,
Leave me alone.
Cause nobody understands the immense pain I feel right now, the huge hole in the middle of my chest.
x.
8:54 PM // Out of the darkness and into the sun
After weeks of convincing myself that I was over you,
I realized that I still love you, as much as I did before
And here I am, crying my heart out over you,
My body shivering violently.
It's been weeks since I last cried, but now, here comes the tears again,
Just for you
Because i fucking miss you so much,
but you dont give a shit
you don't realize it
and you dont notice it..
You broke my heart once again. And you will always keep breaking it, until it turns to dust.
6:25 AM // Out of the darkness and into the sun
By The Way
I'M NOT FUCKING EMO .Thanks (:
= = Don't understand WHY you guys think I am. Godd ):
12:04 AM // Out of the darkness and into the sun
1 Score and 2 Months Ago
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Goth Day; Rachel Lee vs Tiffany (:
Helen! I should've done this picture in just normal colors. Accidently set it to black&white. Awhs s): MelonChenly, I miss you so! Dx.JPG)
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(: Helloss. Yeah, Posting again.
Yesterday:
I went to Ximending with Vanessa and Rachel. So, I was at home at 1:30. My grandma was going to bring me to the bus place, but she was late. So she came home at 1:40, and I was suppose to meet Vanessa, Jeff, and Rachel at Ximen at 2. From my house to there, it took approximately 30 minutes. I was already running late. So we sped out the door, and went to a 7 Eleven to buy the train cards things. Then my grandma let me go on the MRT myself, and I kinda got lost. (: Haha. Yeah. Then around 2:30, I met up with Vanessa Rachel & Jeff. They were pissed :X They said if I reached there at like 3, they would beat the living shit out of me 8D HAHAHA. Thankkk gooodnesssss >.> -Sigh-.
So we shopped around, and I bought studs. Vanessa bought a necklace, and Rachel wanted to buy skate shoes like mine. = = Ugh. Well! So then we went to do a lot of those 夾娃娃 machines. Where you liek control the thing and pick up those dolls. Yeah, and Jeff got speakers, I got this retarded round plush thing, Rachel got a seal, and Vanessa got random keychains= = HAHA.
So, we went to the house, where we drew on the table with markers. Taking turns to go buy stuff downstiars at 7Eleven, we were reallllyyy boreddd :] Then, we went to this building that was across 新光三月 and ate at this expensive restuarant called Chillis! Haha. Steak = = So we, jayjay, jeff, rachel, vanessa, andrew, and i , ordered steak. All the same thing. But they only had like 4 steaks left so Andrew and I gave up our steaks and ordered salad. But then Rachel Jayjay and Jeff and Vanessa like ate our salad, so yeah.. THEN I WENT TO THE BATHROOM WITH VANESSA :] LOL. and we played with the fun handdryer thing. 8D ITS SO COOL! HAHHA. Okay. == um. Then..we ate this really good ice cream, and left the shop
We wwalked around to this arcade, where we spent like 500 NT playing these hilarious games. It's sooo funny. And we won a buncha tickets. The adults waited across the street at this coffee shop, so after we spent the 500 NT and the arcade was closing, we ran over to the shop and ordered 5 milk tea and 1 calpis. I'm the calpis :] There, we mixed sugar and salt. The milktea was like.. really really really.. bitter? i guess? So we added soo much fucking sugar its so funny. Then i poured the salt into Jeff's full milktea, and he just stopped dirnking it. we added pepper and shit to it afterwards. HAHHA. So funny (: Then jeff added salt to my calpis . = = NOT FUNNY.
THENNNNN...................................................
We played around with andrew's hat and hid it in Jayjay's polarbear jacket. It was soo funny, cause Andrew got soo pissed at us. We were running around in the rain ..
Lalala. Then It was like.. 12 PM. Jayjay andrew and jeff sent me home, and it took his uncle like 1 hour from 101 to get to My house. hahaha :X im sorry i live in a weird place :] Then.. yea..
I was home.. 1 AM in the morning.
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Sighh. Today, No plans .Tomorrow, Johnny Shen's coming to our house, and Tim, Johnny, and I are going to watch 不能說的秘密 together. :D YAY. HAHahs. then, they'll go to 101 around after lunch, and I'll probably go hang out with Vanessa, then maybe Andrew afterwards.
Funday, Fundays.
LOVE,
T (;
p.s.
Two Months Ago, You Were Still Mine.
The Date You Left Me, Which I Will Never Forget : October 16, 2008. 12:13 PM
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11:15 PM // Out of the darkness and into the sun
Always There
Why is it, that everytime I go somewhere or something, you always seem to be right there. I mean seriously, suddenly I hear people saying ' ______'s Coming! ' and I'm like , ' Wtf ? 'So it hurts.
Okaeh. You may think I don't like you anymore, and honestly, I don't know if I do or not. I'm suppose to be over you, way over you, like you're not a part of my life. But I'm not. I miss you so terribly, although I'm terrifed to admit it to you. Everyday spent with you is a new best day of my life. I want to be with you, everyminute and every second, but I know it's not possible..
Everything, all those questions and thoughts you ever asked me, I wanted so much to tell you the truth, to tell you how I really feel, but I just can't. I don't want you to have to worry about me, or even waste your time to try to make me hate you.
Why is this so complicated for me? Why can't I just forget about you and find another guy to love? Here's how it goes:
Guy! Forget. Guy! Forget. You. You. You. You.
Well at least that's how it went. It's so hard to forget about you.. and I don't want to. Liek you said, of course I want to be good friends. I mean, we know eachother so well! But.. I love you .
Not that friendy kind of way, but the kind of way, that hurts and burns a hole in the center of my chest.
So, why are you still drifting in my mind? I honestly don't know.
All I know, is that I miss you, so terribly, and aching for you everyday of my life, and that I .. just can''t forget about you ..
Do you still misunderstand?
T
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9:34 AM // Out of the darkness and into the sun
The Setting Sun
Have you ever seen a setting sun..Looked at it too long, that a gloomy face begins to pop out. The dark, purple circles under her eyes were heavy, and her face looked tired and lifeless. Her eyes showed no emotions, only a single teardrop slides down her cheeks every once in a while. Her hair is all messed up, and her shirt is ragged. Her face looked close to a dead corpse's. Her eyes only looked forward, into the unchanging future.. which left her still crying and craving for him.. She longed for the feeling of being next to him, having him there, but he never returned. He had ran off, and that left her devastated.
Mmm..haha. Another morning here back in Taipei. Ate breakfast. Boring Life. I'll probably go hang out with Vanessa and Rachel Lee afterwards, in XIMENDING. Haha, and maybe at night we'll go hang out with J-Lo and Andrew at SHILING YESHI. Yeahh..at least something to do > <
A;kdjflkxo, I'm exhausted.. Not really but yeah. Wow-ing right now (: and I feel like posting. Lalalela.. ooh. I'm doing hyjal raid now. Wana see 8D
Lol. I'm Szenna! The one riding on the purple horse (: Wheee. lol. Sighh..Yeahh, I'm this bored = = Sigh.. llalla.. you know seriously i'm so fucking bored I have nothing to do at my house but to eat = = Aiyaa. Well, i'll post later. TTYL
Then only when I start to notice the features on this girl's face, do I realize that it is me, myself, that I'm looking at. I never imagined it to be so .. dark.
Love,
Tiffany..
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5:48 PM // Out of the darkness and into the sun
Memories of Nobody
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(: HI. I'mback again . haha . I just went on a four-day trip thing down south of taiwan, somehwere called Miaoli or something . Haha.. UHM. It was fun. the kids were like me, Eric, Yvonne, AJ, Tim, Rachel, Michelle, Kenny, Cherry, Arthur, and this gayass college bitch. :) Heh.
Um. it was.. fun I guess 8D Lale.alla. Well later we're going to Eric's house again for dinner . (: Mhm mhm . Well.. now isn't a good posting time for me.
I'll ttyl :]
I'll ttyl :]
Love,
T
12:02 AM // Out of the darkness and into the sun
That Unavoidable You.
Yeahyeah, it's winter holidays. Big deal..
I miss rachel so much, when shes like 1 Hour and 30 Minutes flight away from me .. ): ITS SAD. Leaving her.. Blahs! Its jsut winter break..
but tahts not the worst part..
Kw is moving .. - cries - kw .. dont leave .. pleaseeee.... begging youuu ): im on my knees, just dont move and dont leave me .. okay ?! PLEASE.. stay kw .. i need you here..
LoveLoveLoveLoveLoveLoveLoveLoveLoveLoveLoveLoveLoveLoveLoveLoveLove
Sigh.. Well. Yeah, maybe you know already, but I'm in Taiwan right now @.@ Rachel and Helen are all like , SO LUCKY LBHHALBHALH! Well HEY. Its not lucky at all. theres like fukin nothing to do here, esp when your friends arent here.Only like J.Lo is here = = & Its odd wid jlo :} Hahahahs. EEK! RaCHEL HELEN VPOO RACHELLED I MISS YOU ALLL , SO FUCKING FUCKING MUCH ! Now i know how miserble it is to actually be away from you guys = = argh. Sigh
Life's been much less gloomy, and sometimes pretty exciting. Although i still really miss you, and you know that. I'd love to be at the winter formal to see you two togehter, for the first time, except you know , she'll probably shoot me . = = Hates me, probably. .
I guess I dont hate her. I mean, its .. just .. you two are meant to be ! RIGHT ! (: Yeahh...
Mhm.. Well I've moved on . i hope . ANND! Ive been thinking of you less, lately. its hard to bear the image . But im so sick of everything.
[[ SO SICK - Ne-Yo ]]
Gotta change my answering machine
Now that I'm alone
Cuz right now it says that we
Can't come to the phone
And I know it makes no sense
Cuz you walked out the door
But it's the only way I hear your voice anymore
(it's ridiculous)
It's been months
And for some reason I just
(can't get over us)
And I'm stronger than this
(enough is enough)
No more walkin round
With my head down
I'm so over being blue
Cryin over you
And I'm so sick of love songs
So tired of tears
So done with wishing you were still here
Said I'm so sick of love songs so sad and slow
So why can't I turn off the radio?
Gotta fix that calender I have
That's marked July 15th
Because since there's no more you
There's no more anniversary
I'm so fed up with my thoughts of you
And your memory
And how every song reminds me
Of what used to be
That's the reason I'm so sick of love songs
So tired of tears
So done with wishing you were still here
Said I'm so sick of love songs so sad and slow
So why can't I turn off the radio?
(Leave me alone)
Leave me alone
(Stupid love songs)
Dont make me think about her smile
Or having my first child
I'm letting go
Turning off the radio
Cuz I'm so sick of love songs
So tired of tears
So done with wishing she was still here
Said I'm so sick of love songs so sad and slow
So why can't I turn off the radio?
(why can't I turn off the radio?)
Said I'm so sick of love songs
So tired of tears
So done with wishing she was still here
Said I'm so sick of love songs so sad and slow
So why can't I turn off the radio?
(why can't I turn off the radio?)
And I'm so sick of love songs
So tired of tears
So done with wishin' you were still here
Said I'm so sick of love songs so sad and slow
Why can't I turn off the radio?
(why can't I turn off the radio?)
Why can't I turn off the radio?
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That songs describes me , dude. So don't go calling me emo and shit, cause that ain't gonan work again. Trying to hurt me , nope . No deal.
You think i dont want to forget about you ? Well , i dont . Actually. I just need the strength to seal you away in my heart, and only take out th memories when i need them . But i can't keep holding on to them, everytime i feel cold and alone . I need new memories, who knows when in the future ill get them?
So listen to that song first, and then come back and judge me . (:
LoveLoveLoveLoveLoveLoveLoveLoveLoveLoveLoveLoveLoveLoveLoveLoveLove
Mmmmmm.. TAIWAN! Yeahyeah, the food's great. I have really nothing to write about.. hmm..
OHHH, VANESSA IS MOVING TO PUXI! FUCK! It's so.. sad..
Wellyou know ill just not mourn for now. ill make her stay until jeff gets a slot . YEAHYEAH, TIFFANY PLAN A. IKUZO! :D
MUCH LOVE,
T :]
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11:53 PM // Out of the darkness and into the sun
HOLY SHIT!
BREAKING DAWN. IS. SUCH. A . FUCKING. GOOD. BOOK.
Seriously. Ohhh my god. You guys totally have to read it. I finished all the books now, and I am greatly satisfied XD Its seriously sooo gooood (: i love it so much . Wish stephenie meyer could visit our school! That would be soo fukin awesome.
AND. Edward cullen is HAWT :]
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Dance Class,
OMG! We are frickin awesome! Dude, the teachers choreographing these slutty dance moves. Roflmao. its so hilarious. (: but i love it. Its really funn, and i love dancing so much dude! Its kinda a mix of hiphop and break dance.. Its realllllllly awesome (: Ill show you guys at school someday. Altho most of youve already seen it ya XD
Gotta go. Will Continue Tomororw
Bye
Loves,
T
6:58 AM // Out of the darkness and into the sun
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